Saturday, July 07, 2007



The following post contains some pretty strong opinions and a few nasty words ;o)

They say that today is supposed to be a lucky day. I really wish yesterday was the seventh then. Just when I thought things were finally going my way, I let my guard down and that's when all Hell breaks loose. BIG MISTAKE! Dealing with LTD has got to be one of the WORST experiences one could have.

As I left work yesterday, I was told that I didn't need to continue working because my LTD was re-instated and I was once again covered 100%. I told my employer that I didn't mind working my 12 hours per week but if I they were giving me the rest of July off, then woohoo! On the way home I swirled around ideas in my head of what I wanted to do with my unexpected free time. Another big mistake.

When I arrived home the phone rang and it was work. They said I had to continue working my 12 hours per week. I won't lie, I was a little disappointed, but I figured I might as well bring in two incomes instead of one :o) My employer expressed their frustration with the situation so I said I would call my LTD caseworker and get back to them when I knew more of what was going on.

So it was back to my original caseworker - J. I don't think she was too happy to have me back. She indicated that I did have to continue working and then wanted to know about my treatment program at the hospital. I told her what I knew and explained that I wouldn't be able to begin until the second or third week of August because the specialist was away for the month of July. I quickly pointed out that if LTD had not dragged their heels, I would have been able to start MUCH sooner.

The topping on the cake came in two layers. J stated that I had to continue working while I was taking the treatment program. WTF? How was I going to manage 12 hours a week PLUS another 8 hours? Not her concern. She said the letter from the specialist stated that I could work while taking the treatment. Well that wasn't right because he specifically told me that I couldn't. Why would I risk my health and wait this long for treatment if I was told I could work during treatment. Not really making sense J!

Then she explained that my employer didn't want to break up my work hours anymore (I'm working three days a week - M, W, F - four hours per day) and that they would prefer if I would do two full 8 hour days. Again, WTF? My employer never indicated this to me. HOW am I going to work a full day when I'm completely exhausted after four hours (just ask Faith Ann and Katie what happens)? As it already stands, I cannot work two days in a row because I need the next day to recuperate. So, treatment is on Wednesdays and Fridays. That leaves a Monday plus another day during the week. That ain't going to work J!

I was SO mad and SO upset yesterday that I thought I would explode! I cannot believe the CRAP that insurance companies will put you through. They play you and J was playing me and I was a sucker and bit. While they are letting in the frauds, they are leaving out those that really need it. I'm not saying I will need it forever. I don't know. What I DO know is that I need help RIGHT NOW but the last thing they are going to do is make it easy for me.

WHY does there have to be such evil in the world? WHY can't good, kind and honest people make it? Because, if you're going to succeed and succeed up there with the "big dogs" you have to be nasty and dishonest. Kindness doesn't seem to get people anywhere anymore and that's such a sad thing. I'm so glad that we do not have children because I can't imagine leaving this screwed up planet to them. Sad...but true :o(


Lili said...

Well, I often worry for our kids when I see how the world is working, really... I can't believe what I'm reading. Is there any possibility for you to contact the doctor who said you couldn't work and have the treament at the same time?
And what about your job? It all sounds insane! Some things need to be cleared... I hope next week will bring right and reasonable answers to this nonsense... This can't be.
Take care, Cathey, Lili

Karen said...

Unfortunatly it is often us honest ones that are made a fool of and the cheats get what seems like everything on a platter .
I know I nearly lost my life doing things the right way when others seem to breeze in and get things done pronto.
sometimes I wonder if I could have had kids, would I have had them as you say this is one screwed up planet right now.
I hope things get sorted out for you , it cant be helping with all this extra stress

Itching To Stitch said...

I'm so sorry you're going through such difficulty. I'm not sure what your health problems are but my heart goes out to you trying to deal with that and your work situation. Hopefully Monday you can get at least the work end of things straightened out. You'll be in my prayers ;)

Faith Ann said...

Oh no. I thought things were finally moving in the right direction and you were getting a few days of vacation.

That sucks.

Jenn said...

Oh no! I'm so sorry for what is going on. I wish there was something I could do to help. I hope you can get everything worked out quickly.

Lori-Ann said...

Politicians, banks, and insurance agencies are all criminals in my book. Not one to be trusted, and not one to be counted on.

I'm so sick of good guys getting walked all over and used as well. We need a Zorro.

I've been let down by so many people, so many times that (unfortunately) my glass is half empty.

tkdchick said...

Its sad to say when dealing with insurance companies... they're just out there to make money, never to help you.

Shannon L. said...

It's all about the bottom line. Maybe understandable if insurance companies weren't making billion dollar profits. But even then, not really.

I am sorry. You don't need the added stress of this. I had high hopes that you'd finally got the answer you wanted and that things could calm down for you.

*big hugs* I'll keep hoping that a miracle occurs and someone sees the light.